Bellabonafide's Blog

Ana: Is good, pure and beautiful
Mia: Is evil, unpure and ugly

Ana use to sit calm and nice and play, then she does that everything is just fine
but sometimes Mia comes running fast and push Ana hard so she fly away and
get pain. This make Ana sad, and very angry.
Now Ana have get all her strength and bring Mia to a cage in hell, and there
she has to sit forever. Without Mia Ana is very happy, then Ana happy everything is perfect.

Good bye Mia, Ana I love you, you always gonna be in my heart <3

I was in Karlstad with my sweet friend Anna this weekend, here is my lunch when
we was out and shopping, it was så yummi, they was so sweet there, sometimes they
get angry at vegans but they was so sweet and did a little special meal for me :)
More photos and info about the weekend coming tomorrow, I have to go to sleep now
becaus I have to work tomorrow, love ya all

Everyone is nagging on me, Oh you have been to thin, you have loose so much in weight in so shot time, you eating to little, I´m gonna watch you. Hello leave me alone?
My mum is the worse "Don´t you understand how dangerous it is to loose so much in weight on so shot time, you can die" and she nag at me and lie to me.
People please! Don´t say one more word about that Im thin, because I am NOT thin, I know how a thin person look, and I know how I look, ok say that I have loose much in weight, yes I have 8 kilo (17.6 pounds or whatever you counting in) but don´t tell me that Im thin anymore beacuse Im not, and I never gonna be, I be so angry at you people who is lie to me, i hurts, don´t you understand that? Shut up instead if you haven´t anything to say
And today I have been EATING, alot, a little to much, ok very to much x_x

You are always inside me
you live inside me to help me
you always there to support me
you always there to tell me what to do
you make rules for me so I can live my day more simple
you are always there then I fail
first you gettning angry at me
but then you help me up on my feets again
you help me to never ever give up
you make me beautiful
Thank you

                                                                                                    Audrey Kitching

Why do things never turn like you want it to?
Why do I never succes with that I really want to?
Why does nothing happens?
It doesnt matter how much I fight, how much I scream
how much I suffer, how much control I get.
It doesnt help.
Nothing happens anymore.
I´m angry at my self, and I´m angry at you
Caus you never ever gonna understand me

I have been working alot lately, so I have been so tired on the evenings and just sit and look at TV and taking walks in the fresh autumn air. Maeby I´m not working next week, not fun to not making money, but a bit nice to be free a little ^^
I have put on my extensions and dye my hair black again, I love it, I have really been missing my hair and that color, I don´t care about that copycat anymore, if she took my style, is hers problem, not mine, I look like I want and I don´t care if 1000 more people would look the same way (well uhm ok you got me, I do care hehe)  

Why live a life
That's painted with pity
And sadness and strife
Why dream a dream
That's tainted with trouble
And less than it seems
Why bother bothering
Just for a poem
Or another sad song to sing
Why live a life

I went home to my mum today, and she told me that my pony Lillan
is pregnant :) I tought she did´nt can be that again, but no she is, on
the pic you see the father to hers new little foal.

Everyting feels so good at the moment, it feels like my life starting again.
I told my mum yesterday that I have stop go to school, and she took that
good, on monday I gonna work, and maeby maeby I gonna work the hole
week, hope for that ^^

Today I have been riding on my mums horse, it was very fun, it was a wile
ago, and it went very good, and tomorrow I gonna have aches in my stomach
and mu back, and I love that feeling <3

I gonna be at my mum the hole weekend and gonna help her then she compete
on sunday :) I was supose to go and party saturday but my friend get ill, but
there many weekends and many partyes, It was good for my mum that I can
help her ^^

well well, here some more pics in Lillans boyfriend hehe (I have forgot his name oops)

Have been in sthlm a few days for shopping, shopping and a little bit shopping :P
it was great they have sp much more beautiful clothes in that style I like in sthlm
then they have home here in Skövde. Uhm, on the pic you see the ceiling in the
subway in Solna.
At the moment I making a musicvideo with some clips from the subway hehe
maeby puting that one up her on buzznet then I´m ready with it.

some of the thing I bouth, the rest is still in my bag xD

Yesterday I was hanging around in the mall with some friends, and I saw a girl who had
copy me, I always see her then I´m in the center, before she had just black hair, but now
she have exacly like I had before, couldn´t she do something different at least??
And I gonna do that hair again very soon bur now maeby they have forgot I had like that
before and thinks that I am the copycat, so instead for the blond things in my hair I maeby
do them pink or something.